Now and Then,
We all find ourselves as humans confused in this world, no matter what the age. We find ourselves able to pin pick everything that we do on a daily bases. I myself, a 17 year old girl, find myself crying, screaming, over eating, under eating, and wondering how I get by day by day. As I assume that most people do. I believe that on some occasions we can lose our souls for a second and find ourselves in another world. OUR OWN WORLD! A world that we ourselves decide whats right and allow ourselves to be captivated by it, to the point that we don't want to come back to reality. I know I am suck in my world and wish to never to return back to mother earth. It might be because of my home life, but what persons life is perfect? There is no such thing as a perfect family and nor do I try and find one. I hope that statement doesn't insult anyone but its just me being honest. Which is probably the only thing I can offer to you. Honesty. I try to allow myself to see the world through someones else eyes and now and then I see something.....Life looks the same for everyone. Its dark, bright, happy, sad, painful and worth it. Cause when life is done and in my belief, I think that after we die, that someone, not God, but someone allows us to sit back a look over our life's and see the good and the bad. I think that at that moment when were far gone from earth that we will see that it was all worth it in someway or another. We will find that we could of lived a little more and appreciated what we had to a large degree but we will also see that throughout every fight with a family member and ever loss of a loved one, some sort of positive nature came out of it. Whether it be a lesson learned or just finally understanding the person you care most about. It helped in the long run and hopefully you turned out some way that you wanted. Again now and then we all have time to let ourselves come to our own conclusions and try and find ways to describe our lives. That is all I'm doing, well at least trying to do.
I'm not writing this to find hope or reason, I'm doing this so I can voice my opinion and hopeful help someone in their lives not make the same mistakes as I've done.
